The Chubby Firefighter

Happy Friday Loves!! I think I am gonna make this my blog day, This week I didn't make anything really different as far as food goes, but I have been better at sticking to my diet so I am almost back on track weight loss wise.  I got turned onto this popcorn from vitamin shoppe... The peanut butter vanilla is to die for. Its a little pricey but so delicious. I didn't know that I needed Peanut Butter Vanilla popcorn in my life, but I'm sold on it now.  Lent starts the first and I actually had to think about it this year.... I couldn't go to my old standby since I don't eat fast food, I don't drink soda... crap I will have to give up something hard LOL. I decided that this year I am giving up CHOCOLATE (ugh I may die) also no meat on Monday and Fridays.  God grant me the strength to do the damn thing. Bring on the Meat substitutes!! This week I have also been pushing myself pretty hard. The weather has been gorgeous and I Just wanted to be out and runni...

The other night I saw an article about the importance of fitness as a public servant and how we are in fact professional athletes. I like that thought, while I would really like the pay that goes with it, I'll just use it as a personal motivator for now. As I have said before, during this last year I changed my goal from being skinny to being healthy, and earning the title of firefighter. Not just the book smarts but the real, honest title. To be that person that doesn't make the people inside scared to have me with them. To be able to pull my brother to safety if the need arises. I think that is what has brought me success this time. I have a clear goal, its a passion, not just a desire to look good in a bikini. It doesn't mean Im always perfect and I don't struggle but it does help me bring myself back in line when I stray. I don't think you all want to log in just to hear me ramble, so from now on I am going to add some recipes and show my workouts from time to...

Today is usually a pretty crap day for me. This whole week really. I thought this year it wouldn't be so bad since I have been taking medications and working out. I have been in a pretty good place. Unfortunately it hit all the same on thursday night to where I didn't want to leave for work. I made myself go even though I was scared. While I was on the way My amazing friend RJ sent me an amazing string of text messages that I really needed. I am pretty sure my sister had a hand in that, she does that stuff sometimes. Today I kept myself off the couch by doing lots of working out. Im at the fire department so I pushed myself out of my funk and got my miles done. My mom and dad brought me pizza (can't turn down the best pizza in jackson)  so I broke out my fire gear and did a round of "crossfit" and 3 rounds of 30 second planks with Tom. A great round of "penance" and the pizza was worth it. My diet has been pretty suck for the last couple of days but I am...

All night I have seen this stuff floating around on my feed. It makes me incredibly sad, Gaga did amazing, she put on a hell of a show that would have had cardiogods panting. She sang with her amazing range and the whole time she looked amazing. The people who felt that it was ok to talk about her stomach or any part of her body make me furious.  I know Im not famous but as someone who has recently went through a big change, Ill Tell you its very hard to have your body under constant scrutiny. Granted I am lucky and almost all have been very positive, but I can tell you even when its positive its hard to deal with. Let alone when someone says something bad. Sadly we live in a world where people think its ok to say mean things about other people. This is why body image problems and eating disorders are so rampant. I can say that as someone with dysmorphia its already hard enough to love my body but I am constantly working on loving myself. We don't need naysayers coming in a beli...

Morning lovelies, Today is a lovely monday, which is sadly not my cheat meal day. Gah, how I wish it was! My regularly scheduled partner has me make her food every week when I do my meal prep, which works out awesome for me because I don't have to deal with temptations. Tonight we got split and I have a different partner who got a Gyro for dinner.... I miss Gyros! I am currently itching like a crack fiend. Lol, I ate my normal snack but it didnt cut it and while I am not hungry, Im HUNGRY. I keep talking myself down, because  I know while it wouldn't  really screw me up it wont help me get to my goal. So instead of doing my goals a disservice Im blogging.  So friends tell me, what is your food that catches you up?  How is your week going? Are you kicking ass at your goals?

So today while I was doing my normal wake up/ preworkout routine. I was scrolling through facebook per the ush and I was bombarded with people selling things like IT WORKS and Shakeology.  The one that finally put me over the edge was a targeted add about a starlets weight loss, the title was misleading so I clicked on it. Of course it was another add for the "miracle weight loss drug garcinea cambogia" I was obviously a little miffed I got click bated for something stupid. I left for my run and didn't get the same quiet mind time as usual, I kept ruminating on the articles. The starlet was Rebel Wilson, whom I normally find fairly inspiring. She plays yo the fact that she is bigger and embraces it. I love the fact that she promotes loving your body. Which is something  I often struggle with. I am sad to see the way that media plays on insecurity to keep people fad dieting. Sadly there is no miracle its all blood, sweat, and tears. Over the years I have always struggled ...

Smart people remember that they didn't work out a whole set of muscles groups for a whole month and ease into it. NOT ME!! going as hard as I did the last two days, along with the fact that I really only ran last month. I woke up today feeling like I was smacked down by the awful hand of God. I didn't think that running was a good option today. So active recovery  was todays option. 30 minutes of yoga, the foam roller and hand roller later I am moving a little easier. I really like active recovery, when I fist started I thought rest day was a day to go full on lazy and do nothing.  The next day I would wake up and want to do the same thing. This way that part of my day os still carved out. Also it gives time to really stretch out those muscles. I always thought that yoga as excercise was stupid, but it really helps movement.

Lets try expanding again, tumbler wasn't my jam so I am going to give Blogging a try. I will tell you know Punctuation is not my strong suit, I'll try but no promises.  I love the chubby firefighter,  it gives me an outlet to talk about the struggles that is changing your entire lifestyle. I love that I have people who are genuinely interested in listening to what I have to say.  Thoughts from a 24 hour fire shift.  I have a plan, a training schedule, a way things are supposed to go every week. When I start to veer things like to go super wrong. Wednesdays are long run days, it supposed to be the same every week. This week I have a virtual 10k to run. I decided to try to change that because its icy and I wanted to run outside with Dante. I had a plan all set, we would wait till Thursday and go to the park in Jackson. Of course the world decided to step in on that LOL. When we got there I quickly found out that there was more ice on the paths there then on the roa...