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A little less facebook, a little more Drag Queens....

So today while I was doing my normal wake up/ preworkout routine. I was scrolling through facebook per the ush and I was bombarded with people selling things like IT WORKS and Shakeology.  The one that finally put me over the edge was a targeted add about a starlets weight loss, the title was misleading so I clicked on it. Of course it was another add for the "miracle weight loss drug garcinea cambogia" I was obviously a little miffed I got click bated for something stupid. I left for my run and didn't get the same quiet mind time as usual, I kept ruminating on the articles. The starlet was Rebel Wilson, whom I normally find fairly inspiring. She plays yo the fact that she is bigger and embraces it. I love the fact that she promotes loving your body. Which is something  I often struggle with. I am sad to see the way that media plays on insecurity to keep people fad dieting. Sadly there is no miracle its all blood, sweat, and tears.
Over the years I have always struggled with what I see when I look at myself. Even now I still see 270lb April and flaws in the mirror. It has been almost 10 months of constant changing and my brain still can't reconcile what was and what is. Then to see things like so and so lost 40 lb in a month makes me feel  a little crazier. It has to be hard for other to see that too. I said at the start I was going to do this the all natural way and Im glad I did. But I have a confession  (I did put this on Facebook at the time, I never hid it) during my plateau  period I did try a pill for fat burner... it did absolutely nothing, didn't  curb hunger, didn't boost metabolism, didn't bring any extra weight loss. You know what did? Getting off of it and keeping my diet and exercise.  Don't spend extra money on the stuff... you have everything you need inside you to meet your goals.

The thing that made me want to write this was actually last night. We spent most of our shift watching RuPaul's drag race, the thing that I love about the show is that even though these guys go through pretty amazing transformations, they do it in a place of love for themselves. I think its a beautiful positive message that changing yourself isn't bad as long as you decied to love yourself. My favorite thing is that Ru ends just about every episode with the phrase "remember if you dont love yourself, how the hell you gonna love someone else" what better message is there than that? Even  in my darkest places and times that has always spoke to me.

Ok loves done ranting tonight.  Go love yourself you are beautiful!!

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